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OK so I can't access my Yahoo email since I apparently forgot what the password is. Can I just say that THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE, and so I am very wary on why it's happened now.

So to make things clear: If you received any e-mail from my old e-mail, nadirah_amy @ yahoo.com, very recently (like 2 or 3 days ago) please tell me what it contains, and ignore the subsequent messages since they're most likely NOT FROM ME. I don't know if anyone would hack my email that would seem just a bit stupid since I know I'm boring and all, but I thought I'd warn you just in case ;_;

So yeah, guys, please message me on my new e-mail (you know where to look) or just PM me at LJ if you need to reach me, don't email me at nadirah_amy anymore.

I want to recover that account but dammit I can't. That was an old account which I've had since I was 13 or something and there were lots of convos saved and all. Sad that I can't access it now :( Hope I'll be able to recover it soon.

Okay, I’m kind of in a dilemma right now.

Okay, so I think most of you are aware that I started to work as a research assistant in my university (lol alma mater, hai there) a few weeks ago (this is my 3rd week “working”, in fact). Initially the only reason I even applied for the job was due to the fact that my mom was pushing me to work there while I’m ~jobless~. I wasn’t really keen on the idea (in fact, my wonderful plan was to bum around the house until graduation, and then I’ll be working) but well, bumming around sounds bad when you’re living with your parents, lol. So yeah I started working 3 weeks ago.

On Tuesday, however, I went to a job interview at this private, government-owned company which is doing a project on the second bridge of Pulau Pinang. My dad was pushing me to go to this interview, and heck I was really intimidated because dude I have no experience with bridge designs and whatnot. But I thought what the heck, I’ll just go and see how it goes.

Bad enough that I went to the interview while I’m supposed to be at the office at the time, I just found that I got the freaking job. I thought I wouldn’t get it since I embarrassed myself in the interview, heh. But surprise surprise, I did get the job :| And I’m not happy, surprisingly.

I mean, I never did sign any contracts, so I don’t think I’ve “officially” started working, to be honest. So following that logic, I shouldn’t even have to submit any 2 weeks’ notice to quit this job, because I never did sign any papers. I don’t know, though, I’d have to ask my supervisor about it.

And that’s the worst part. My supervisor have been super awesome with all her help, and I feel really really guilty for doing this.

I don’t know what to do. Help?

I got through my first week at work, guys~ I SURVIVED.

And now I need to rant, lol.

LET'S TALK ABOUT

PET PEEVES

( I know you’re all dying to know )
In the course of this ~rant~, I have found out that I’m a passive aggressive bench. (LOL DUH)

WHAT ARE YOUR PET PEEVES? I REALLY WANNA KNOW. IDK I’M BORED. Plus I know I’m not free of fault, so I bet some of y’all’s pet peeves are probably things that I do :D

Also, they all got free KFC today and no one got one for me :( I hate being the ~new kid~ here FML. (LOL I know that is like the silliest thing to get upset over, BUT I WANT SOME KFC RIGHT NOW OKAY. STOP EATING THEM IN FRONT OF ME FFS, I CAN SMELL IT FROM YOUR CUBICLES. YES, ALL OF YOU.)

SECOND ALSO: WTF MAN WHY DO I HAVE TO START WORK IN THE SAME WEEK EPIC SHITS HAPPENED IN MY IDOL FANDOM? LIKE ADAM & KRIS’S COMCAST CHAT (Danny’s was epic in the lulzy way, hence it’s not as epic as epic epic), AND THE #GOKEYISADOUCHE TREND OVER AT ONTD (4 for you, ONTD coco, and 2 for you ONTD_AI, and NONE FOR GOKEY BYE), THE KOOKY INTRO POST (haha get it? ~kooky~) AND ITS SUBSEQUENT REPRISAL, ADAM GETTING A TWITTER MF LOL, THE TROLLING OF THE LAMKEY COMM, AND EVERYTHING ELSE OMG WHY. CLEARLY I SHOULD JUST SIT AROUND AT HOME AND BE A BUM. (Just kidding guys, don’t start sending numbers to some psychiatric hotline or anything, God.)

( Also, I think #gokeyisadouche )

I hope to God next week won’t be as epic, ‘cause I have a feeling I won’t be able to do some online stalkering while I’m working next week. Yes I'm at work right now. I hope no one knows wth I'm doing lulz.

Yeah so I was stalking creeping checking on ontd_ai's calendar thing since I can't believe it's only been 15 days since it first started because I honestly felt as if it's been longer than that. And wow:


ontd_ai's calendar thingamajig. It's only been around for FIFTEEN DAYS. It feels like forever.

WHAT THE FUCK, ontd_ai?! This was why I had no life for the past two weeks, to be honest. I've been feeding my Kradam addiction. An average of about 30-40 posts a DAY. EPIC.

And you know what. I'm actually going to follow my family to this conference thing for 3 days (until Wednesday) so. Yeah. I'm going to come back to 120 posts on ontd_ai alone. UM. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL ABOUT THIS. I DON'T WANT TO MISS THE EPIC KRADAM POSTS, HELP.

(I will totally be crying at my internet-less state for those 3 days, damn. Never will I curse my internet-less state more. Someone please to be keeping track of this and sms-ing the epic news to me. On second thought, don't, because then I will get impatient and would probably start randomly punching anyone nearby.)

My thesis results!
I stopped by my uni today to check out my second semester's final results, so I stopped by to see my thesis supervisor to talk about my thesis results & also the process of applying for a master's degree (I know I told people I don't want to be a grad student but argh, I'm worried I won't have any job, and I might actually apply for this position).

Anyway.

I GOT AN A!!! Suffice to say, my reaction can be summed up as such:


Yes, thank you Tatiana, bb

I am SO STOKED. I mean, I got a B for another subject, and an A- for another one, so it's kind of all balanced out now? I don't know, and personally I don't feel like calculating my GPA just yet, since there's one more subject that's still dangling in the air there.

Speaking of dangling in the air...
So my family were out eating dinner tonight, and we were just talking about music or something random like that. And my dad proceeded to say:

"That Muse has some pretty good music."

And that confirmed my suspicion that he was listening to Muse last night in his room (well, more like he was blaring it on his speakers but since the sound was muffled I wasn't going to jump to an conclusion).

The cause of his interest in Muse? Adam's "Feeling Good" cover, of course. We just talked about how Adam covered it ~fabulously~ and that Nina Simone may or may not be the first well-known singer to sing it.

You know Adam is awesome when he gets my dad to listen to Muse. I mean, my dad listens to some pretty awesome people (e.g. The Police, Pink Floyd, Blackmore's Night, Stevie Wonder, Queen, etc etc), but he would probably not give that much notice to this generation's ~awesome bands and all that.

Speaking of converting my dad to awesome music...
I succeeded in converting my sister to become a fan of Mew about 4-5 years ago, and we both succeeded in coercing my dad to loop Mew's Frengers CD for like 2 weeks straight in the car. ♥

I can't wait for Mew's No More Stories album! (August come soooooooonnnn.) And also, the album cover & title is lolworthy on its own:


Yeah, the whole text on the cover? That's the whole album title. Have fun with this, last.fm.

Speaking of GLEE...
Yeah, so how awesome was Glee? Kickass awesome, that's how awesome it was.



I can't believe we have to wait until fall to catch the next episode, wut?

I was just thinking of doing this this morning, and I coincidentally heard that GeoCities is shutting down soon - how appropriate, heh.


(Click to enlarge)
(Yes, I have become way too lazy with Photoshop *sighs*)

Sadly I couldn't for the life of me find all my old Sailormoon websites. I still remember the garish background wallpaper for the sites and the MIDIs playing.... oh God, I'm suddenly glad they're all gone beyond saving, lol. But yes, Sailormoon ♥ My first, true animanga fandom. I am still sort of in love with it, lol, and I still have all the manga in its full Malay glory :P Back then manga was still cheap, Yahoo! was fairly new, and AudioGalaxy (and Napster, for that matter) was a booming "industry". LOL. How times change. Seriously, now I feel old.

Wonder what happens to my 1001 email usernames. I've forgotten all of them, and the only one I still use is my first email ever, nadirah_amy. "amy", of course, stands for Sailor Mercury, who was my favourite Sailor since I identified the most with her ♥

In other news, my university work is officially FINISHED. Now I'm just waiting for my results (one of them is already out, and argh it's a B). *shivers* The presentation sucks, by the way. God I hated that subject. I'm just hoping for a miracle of an A-. Please?

Also, also, this means I am free to record tons of songs! YESSSSSSSSSSS~ But my brother will be back from his fat camp National Service today so STILL no privacy T____T I will find a way, anyway, heh.

I'm a bit freaked out that I don't feel as if my finals (and essentially, my university life) is over and done with! Maybe it's because we still have a damn presentation for one of our core subjects next week grrrr.

Anyway! We didn't manage to get any pictures of us in the exam room when we finished our last paper :( I was hoping I can sneakily snap a few pictures, but there were other students who were still not done with their papers so it felt kinda weird to take pics at the time. But here, have a picspam of other things :D


( Everything about it invites you in... )



BONUS PICTURE LOL


MY THESIS!
Aaaah, 2 semesters worth of work simplified into one bound copy with 80pg+

I'm so not going to grad school.

(Also: I'm sorry for the quality of the pics, I'm too lazy to actually edit them in PS haha.)

I finished my first paper for the semester, and my last paper of my whole university life is on Monday. I don't know whether I should feel sad or whether I should rejoice or what... I still have one assignment to pass up tomorrow and a presentation in the upcoming week(s). Ah well. C'est la vie.

And so! Meme stolen from monochroma :3

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 10 people you like. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think.

Pick Your Artist: Clazziquai Project ♥

(...b-but what if I don't want to answer it cleverly? xD)

Are you male or female: Beautiful Woman (bwahahaha!)

Describe yourself: Beautiful Stranger (what?! It's not my fault their titles are so easy to pick :P)

How do you feel about yourself: You never know

Describe where you currently live: Sunshine (It is freaking HOT here nowadays!)

If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Fiesta (DAISHI DANCE Remix OH YEAH LULZ)

Your favorite form of transportation: Love mode (lulz)

Your best friend is: Speechless

Your favorite color is: Fill this night

What's the weather like: NIGHT TIME (okay so this is Alex's song but WHO CARES)

Favorite time of day: Love me after 12am (...)

If your life was a tv show, what would it be called: Color your soul

What is life to you: Flea (okay to anyone who knows the lyrics this would probably make some sense lol)

What is the best advice you have to give: Come alive

If you could change your name, what would it be: Sweety (...what?)

Your favorite food is: Lover boy (Yum yum *raises eyebrows suggestively*)

Thought for the Day: Freedom (yessss only one more paper, and one more assignment! *gets shot*)

How I would like to die: LAST TANGO (YES I WOULD LIKE TO DANCE BEFORE I DIE 8D)

My soul's present condition: Gentle Giant

My motto: Steps ahead

Okay, as a Muslim (or as a Malay Muslim) we have this (kind of) belief/general consensus that when we sleep, our roh (soul) leaves our body and kinda roams around. Which makes for an interesting food-for-thought. So this is why when we try to wake people up, we try to wake them by touching/shaking their feet instead of touching/shaking their body. (I'm not sure how that works either, but the point is: don't wake people by surprise, or their soul won't come back to their body or something like that.)

Anyway, I was asleep for a few hours today (just now actually), and I had some interesting dreams, and I remember that parts of it were so sad (I think I actually cried). Sadly the dream's leaving me now, but the interesting part is this:

The events in my dream was kind of spiraling out of control, and I was feeling kind of down, so I decided to go back to my room. Keep in mind that this dream was exhausting emotionally, but also pretty rewarding. Around this point of time in my dream, I kinda woke up half-way. Do you guys ever experience this? It's happened to me occasionally. I don't know, it's like I know I'm asleep, but I want to continue my dream so bad. And so you have this situation where I'm in between awake/asleep status, and one of my eyes was actually open!

My dream-self reached into my pocket for the key (and the funny part was my dream-self was wearing what I'm wearing in real-time, and my key is in my pockets), and inserted the key into the door lock. I am still half-awake. As my dream-self turns the lock, my actual self (who's on the bed, lying facing the door) can actually hear the door lock turning. And I was thinking "oh shit". And I can actually feel my soul returning to my body, but my real self was going "oh shit not yet, what about the opened door?" - hearing that, my dream-self actually locked the door again, and before I can tell my dream-self to put the key back into my pockets (I mean, who knows if it might still be in the door lock), I woke up.

And the soul transfer hurts.

...Just.

I don't know, maybe it's psychological - but y'know, I've never been a big believer of the soul thing, I just thought that yeah it's probably true so I'm not taking my chances and all. But today's really the day I really experience it.

My mind. It is blown.

I watched The Mists of Avalon today, and it reminded me of my hatred for Gwenwyfar in the book. God, she's such a conniving witch! I hated her with a burning passion, and through her Camelot supposedly fell to ruins.

I loved the book, it was a great take on the Arthurian legend and the women behind him. I loved Morgaine, her character was wonderful and it's so heartbreaking to read what she has to go through. Morgaine had her faults, she had her weak moments, but I love her. I was happy that she was actually happy with Uriens (at the very least she's far, far away from Gwenwyfar and Arthur), but the ending of the book was expectedly sad. Although they changed quite a lot of the ending. Ah well, the movie ending was appropriately sad, too.

I wish Arthur & Morgaine could've ruled Camelot together. Morgaine's realization at the end that she could've shaped up Camelot for Avalon's life... God the whole book was brilliant.

I'm in the middle of Bradley's other Avalon series, but so far I don't think anything can come close to Mists of Avalon, it's a wonderful book.

Never again will I look at a Gwenwyfar character in the same light, haha. STOP BLAMING EVERYTHING ON ARTHUR AND MORGAINE BITCH. IT'S MORGAUSE YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE MAD AT. YOU AND YOUR LOVE FOR LANCELOT CAN GO DIAF ...Slip of the tongue hehe. But Morgause is the HBIC in there - maybe if Vivianne had stepped up her game a bit she would've been the real HBIC, but oh well... the ambitious one prevailed. But in all seriousness, I know why she had her conflicts and her beliefs, but people like her angers me so much. It surely doesn't help since I'm watching Merlin lol. I like that series as well, but I felt as if Mists of Avalon is the only "true representation" of the Arthurian legend. :P I know, it's a legend in the first place, but Bradley made that legend hers.

I think the movie/series did the book justice - they hit some right notes here and there, down to the wonderful castings. I loved Morgaine (of course), I felt pity for Arthur, I liked Lancelot but hated him at the same time, and of course I loathe Gwenwyfar . I loved the children who played the younger Arthur and Morgaine, they were so cute! Plus they really made me identified with the book's dynamic between the two characters. 3 hours of the adaptation was well-spent, and it didn't quite feel like it was 3 hours to be honest. They didn't manage to squeeze every little thing, but they kept most of the plot points intact. It had its pros and cons like the fact that it underwhelms the negative roles Christianity had in the original books, and I know that some people despised this adaptation for that. I would definitely recommend the book, and watch the movie with a grain of salt.

Anywaaaay. I should be doing my assignments and various other things, so yeah, I'll be back later :P (4 more weeks of studies AAAAAAHHHH)

SO IT'S TIME FOR ME TO PROCRASTINATE :D

It's not a meme or anything, just something I thought I'd like to do, since I haven't done this in a loooong while. Plus, you know, I'm always bored when it comes to That Time when I'm supposed to be writing my thesis since it's supposed to be submitted by the 20th AHAHAHA, so yeah, this gives me something fun to do in between my thesis report writing MORE AHAHAHA. Okay, so this is simple.

Give me your name & mailing address and I will write you a ~HANDWRITTEN LETTER OH MY GOD HOW EXCITING~. I can't promise you when it'll get there, bu it'll get there :D (Oh, also, your comments are screened, so no worries.) Also, you can put in any "requests" or anything you'd like me to tell you in the letter - like what you've always wondered about me or something.

It is so late and I am so sleep-deprived but I really don't want to go to sleep. Humour me xD

Music meme I got from otterdance~ :) I kinda liked the results lol, and I made a little mini-drama out of the whole thing xD This is why I love this kind of meme.

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
7. No cheating and doctoring your list to make yourself look cooler than the person you took this from

Opening Credits:
中島 愛 - Aimo ~ Tori no Hito

First Day at School:
Kary Ng - 射燈在此
This is a problem with me listening to foreign artists, I don't even know what the lyrics meant lol. Babel tells me it somewhat translates to "In the Spotlight". Which is strangely appropriate considering it's the first day of school :P

Breaking Up:
백지영 - 입술을 주고
Aw, I love Baek Jiyoung ♥ Although Babel provides a weird translation of the song... "giving your lips up"? I don't know. Why would I give my lips up when I'm breaking up? Who knows, love makes us do strange things haha.

Prom:
アナム&マキ - 無口な夜
Title means "Taciturn Night". AWESOME title for the perfect prom song to be honest - I was pretty aloof to the whole prom thing with the guy I "went" with (or wish I'd gone with anyway).

Sex Scene:
Love Solfege - たえなる光とともに
..."With the light which is stopped withstanding". That doesn't even make sense - I hate Babelfish sometimes. Regardless. A pretty epic sounding song to be making love to xD Our love is ~epic~

Life’s Ok:
Coralie Clément - Tu Seras À Moi
"You will be with me". Awww. Doesn't fit but aww. I guess the guy just dumped me or something and this is my "revenge" song? Haha I dunno I dunno. Love the song though.

Mental:
Asobi Seksu - Blind Little Rain
Song does sound a little mental. In a good, sexy way.

Flashback:
Paramore - Decode (Acoustic Version)
Am I still not over that guy from prom or something???

Getting Back Together:
푸른새벽 - 딩
Oh so I wasn't over him? Jeez that's lame. "Ting"? I don't know. Atmospheric music for getting back together though, so that's cool.

Wedding Scene:
Hard-Fi - Feltham is Singing Out
Seems like a telling song on how the marriage is gonna turn out... Apparently we're gonna bond in jail. A+ choice of a husband right there.

Birth of Child:
Zac Efron - Scream
...Yeah I listen to HSM :P But man what a song for childbirth - not even appropriately so. Am I still in jail, I wonder? Maybe I'm going mental in jail or something.

Falling In Love:
White Shoes & the Couples Company - Prelude
Aww, perfect tune to play while falling in love. Lovely ;_; (I hope I'm out of jail by now.)

Final Battle:
Minwoo [M] - 남자를 믿지마 (Feat. Big Tone)
I love this song :D Smooth tune. Although it translates to "does not believe the man"? Haha I guess I'm having a fight with my husband & I wanna leave him 'cause I ~fell in love~ with that other guy. So, final battle between husband & love-of-my-life. Or something.

(Lemme just say that I'm a firm believer of love after marriage but man this meme is so fun lol.)

Death Scene:
Demi Lovato (ft. Jonas Brothers) - On the Line
Damn if I don't listen to some embarrassing artists - embarrassing in the sense that I'd have to explain to them that I love them anyway lol, despite of the embarrasing connotations of listening to teen pop sensations. Demi Lovato is awesome - and tbh I wouldn't touch Miley Cirus with a ten-foot-pole. I listened to her album and it was pretty boring.

...Anyway. Pretty reasonable death scene for everything that's happened with my husband & the love-of-my-life (who-is-not-my-husband). I have no idea who I ended up with in the end.

End Credits:
소규모 아카시아 밴드 - Elliot Smith
Despite not knowing what the heck the song is about, I love this song to death. The whole acoustic feel, the vocalist's voice... so much love. Pretty fitting end credits, even if I may be singing an ode to Elliot Smith. (...Did I stab myself or something because I couldn't decide between the 2 men? Wow lame way to go. Lame life, sounds like, lol.


Wow, this took me longer than I imagined. (Partly because I listened to the whole song instead of pressing next. And the coding, haha. I'm obsessive compulsive like that.)

Books I have read for 2009 so far :) Last year's reading list was pretty satisfying, but I'm hoping I'll get more than 70 books this year, heh. We'll see - I guess it's possible since I'm graduating this year and aside from job-hunting/jobs, I wouldn't be doing anything else :P




2009 Reading List

1. Charles de Lint - The Blue Girl
   I'm kind of cheating 'cause I read this at the end of last year but never put it on the list, hehe.
   
2. Mercedes Lackey - Reserved for the Cat
   I was pleasantly surprised by this. I've only read one book by her before this, and this was better than what I would've expected.
   
3. David Sedaris - When You Are Engulfed in Flames
   
4. Gregory Maguire - Confessions of an Ugly Stepsister
   
5. Neil Gaiman - The Graveyard Book
   I loved this - somehow, Gaiman's Young Adult books always leave a bigger impression on me compared to his more adult works.
   
6. Diana Wynne Jones - House of Many Ways
   Finally read this! I love it ♥
   
7. Piper Banks - Geek High
   A light, easy read which is fun :)
   
8. Cecily von Zieseger - Gossip Girl: The Carlyles
   Meh I never really liked the books, the "society" is so shallow and boring. I much prefer the cattiness & relative "realness" of the TV series.
   
9. Perry Moore - Hero
   Um, AWESOME. I hear they're making a series based on this, and I don't know whether I should be excited or wary.
   
10. Carmen Rodrigues - Not Anything
    
11. Christopher Moore - Fluke, or I know why the winged whale sings
    
12. Colleen McCullough - The Independence of Miss Mary Bennet
    Alright so initially I was kind of pissed off by her depiction of the Darcys' lives - leave the Darcys alone, they're living happily ever after! But yeah I grew to like the way she wrote, and overall it has a pretty satisfying ending. Heh.
    
13. Kaithleen Gilles Seidel - An Uncommon Degree of Popularity
    Ooooh I really loved this. A popular girls kind of book - except it's from the mothers' point of views, lol. Loved it.
    
14. David Sedaris - Dress Your Family in Corduroy and Denim
    I LOL'd. But I think his previous book was better, and I really liked the snippets from his "newest" book. Now to wait for some money...
    
15. Holly Black - Ironside
    My favourite in the whole Faerie series.
    

Not off to a great start, am I? It's already the end of January and I've only read two three books, lol.

ETA (April): Oh my God it's April and I've only read 10 BOOKS?! Lamesauce!
ETA (June): LOL oh God I'm pathetic this year.

That is, parties which are interconnected with Muslims. It's not good news for the economy, but wow, I hope this means our boycotts are making some kind of hole in this too!

Expect closings and bankruptcies to rattle the likes of Lane Bryant, Gap, and Starbucks. It's the inevitable counterpunch to the days of retailers fighting hand over fist for market share during an era of loose credit and minuscule interest rates. - Source

So, companies apparently going bankrupt/closing their store chains at certain places:

• Timberland
  
• Gap
  
• Starbucks
  

Not a huge list just yet, but it's a start :) Just note that this list only includes brands which Muslims are boycotting due to their Israel arms donation. And also, I'm not stupid enough to think that this is all the works of boycotting Muslims - I'm just hoping we a have a hand in it :) Obviously people are saving up in these hard times and aren't willing to cash out for these pricey stores. I'm still boycotting a lot of the big-name brands, and small name ones as well. It helps that there are other alternatives to choose from. And most of the alternatives are cheaper too.

Sorry if the post isn't great in its coherency, I'm tired from my thesis works.